Gosh, everything's coming way too fast for me. We finally sold our store, and honestly, spending 6 years at that dump wasn't all that bad. It was always easy money for me, but putting up with all the bull crap didn't seem so worth it anymore. I just didnt think we'd sell our store so soon. I barely had time to even start saving up! Now I guess it's hello unemployment for awhile. Why do I have such a hard time saving money?! I wish I was more financially stable.. this gets so stressing after awhile. I went searching for a job today, and I already got an interview set up so hopefully, all's will end well!

Dad tried talking me out of getting a job, again. Talking about school and everything, I don't think he's fully understanding what's going on with me. I tell him everything, way more than I've ever told my mom. He blames me reconsidering school on Kevin, but Kevin's far from the reason why. These last couple years has been the most stressful years of my life and all I have to say for it is "I'm tired." Of course any dad would blame boyfriends before anything else, but seriously.. it's the constant battle between work and school. If I don't go to work, I can't pay my bills. If I can't pay my bills, I can't go to school. Ugh, it's like a never ending cycle. I just need to rest a bit, a long good bit, but it doesn't seem like a break is gonna happen anytime soon.. and the thought of that just makes me even more stressed/tired.

Loi left for San Antonio couple weeks back. It's super quiet around the house now, not like it's too much of a bad thing. But I still miss having my big bro around. Not having him around puts me in charge of everything. It's only been a couple of weeks doing this "big sister" thing is tiring as heck. Instead of relying him to some of my parent's work, it's all rested on me now..

One more year of this PJC phase and I'm out of here. We're all pretty much stoked to be moving out. Duy won't be able to meet up with us until next, next year which totally sucks 'cause I've always had that man around. Anything I ever needed, he was here in a jiffy. (him and his speeding habits.) Life's gonna be awkward without him living 10 minutes away, that's for sure.

Geez, did I mention about how tired I am?

Okay, this is getting pretty aggravating. Study, study, study. And I most certainly don't get the grade I want. Maybe work's distracting me? Kevin? It's something. I have no idea what it is, all I really know is this sucks big balls.

Since high school's over, I'm pretty sure everyone got the feeling as if everyone is just drifting apart from one another. I know I have, I've been a home body lately. And honestly, I don't like it but you can't blame a girl. There's not much to do around here anyways. I miss the gang and it sucks to know that we're all going our seperate ways but its life. bahhhhhh you win some, you lose some.

Gosh, I need something to look forward to.
Something really, really, really big.
Life's starting to become a bore now..

So before I could really congradulate myself with some ice cream for making that A in Chem, this man throws another test to us. Already! I guess relaxing this semester wasn't ever an option. God! Well I have till Thursday and I been kinda studying everyday with Maria since last week. I hope I do well 'cause if I don't pass this, it's out-of-state fees for me. And that can't be good for my wallet.  

Anatomy & Physiology 2 ain't no joke! I kicked myself in the head for not making a better grade on the first test. I made flash cards and everything, but somehow (I don't know how) I forgot to look over the flash cards. The whole stinkin' test was on those dumb cards.  Ugh..

Well, Valentine's was alright. This is my second Valentine's with Kevin! Couldn't have asked for a better valentines. He opened the door and everything, such a sweetie.  We double-dated with Jayduh and Jeff and went to Hemingway's. I think we were a tad bit over dressed but all's well. Besides the fact that it was pouring down raining and mommy left me one beastin' voicemail, I enjoyed myself.

Now, March is all about saving, saving, saving. I swear! I don't know how I'm going to do it with all these birthdays, Spring Break, and our one year anniversary, but by the end of the month, I'll hopefully have 500 saved! (yeah, right.)

I've been thinking about moving out alot lately and you can say I'm pretty darn anxious.  I know living on your own isn't all that it's made up to be but still, it's freedom. I can already imagine the bills stacking up. That's why I keep bugging everyone to stop buying those Starbuck's and save already. Who'd ever imagine saving could be so hard.  I tried making a goal for myself every month this year and so far, I haven't met any of them. Hahaha, darn winter sales!  No more shopping! I hope. 

Very, very late blog post.

Okay so this semester requires a lot more studying than I thought. Figures, since I have alot of science classes. The first test I've had in chemistry, I made a 92! That's way better than any chemistry grade I made last semester.  Thank god for Robersen. I have an A&PII test next Wednesday and boy, I know that test is gonna be one heck of a test.  Endocrine system, blood, and cardiovascular system in one test.  wahhht?! Yeah, not excited whatsoev. Spring break needs to hurry (even though I have nothing planned for it.)

Jayduh's man finally arrived.! It was about freakin' time that woman got smooches too, ya know. Ahahaa It's okay, she always come back for mines.  It's a bittersweet kinna thing since now I know that she's not gonna be here for long. He's gonna take her away.  I have till May to be selfish and keep her all to myself since she's moving to San Diego with her Jeff-y poo. I don't even know how my weekends are gonna be without her.  Kev and I promise to visit you guys one of these days! God knows I need a vacation away from Pensacola.

Kev has a job now and I feel bad for him cause that means he doesn't go out as much anymore. That freakin' Chuck guy got him working on Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays from 4pm to 11pm. It sucks cause I only get one day off and I don't get to spend it with him like I usually do.  I miss my bebba, yes I do.

Well on a brighter note, we're still happy even with the schedule changes! We have less than a month and half till we hit the one year mark! I'm really, really excited.  If there's anyone that definitely knows how to push my buttons and make me smile all over again, that's definitely you hun.  I couldn't imagine lasting this past year with anybody else. You've always been my side in ways I couldn't even imagine. I can't tell you how much I appreciate everything that you've done for me and I can't wait to spend all the other anniversaries with you. I love you! 

The only thing I'm excited about is the gang's trip to Atlanta this summer! It's not that far of a drive, but it's a big thing for me since I finally convinced my mom to let me off more than one day for once! After five years at that dump, she's actually giving me some sort of vacay! I'm ready for a roadtrip. Can't wait.!